I am stagnant. I am my own spearmint chewing gum stuck fast on my own shoe and its disgusting super -duper sticky stuff.
I am standing in the middle of a huge empty space, and I desperately want to get out, and more to the point get on with my life: writing, working, having fun - any of it will do.
What’s happened? Everything and nothing is my answer. I had a plan, but, the fate bomb squad blew it up. So, I am left in the debris of nothingness unsure of the next step, and if I was honest a little bit scared to give something a go. I am on constant clock watch of time itself, and that is not a good place to be at.
The sick thing is, I know what I need to do – something, anything will suffice, a tiny step, in any direction, to get the damn stuff at least unstuck.
My head space is glued to itself and I hate myself for it – I really do. I am so great at telling everyone else what to do, how to do it, always positive and determined in every way – so what’s going on in my own head? Gosh I wish I had the answer right now……
Is anyone else here with me right now? Anyone got any answers, help , advice, when the road is seemingly blocked with your own doubt ? For once, seriously, I just don’t know…..
You are only pointing to the core error in your choices here. The mind made places of let me think on it and show myself the way. The mind is the place that all things fail in cause and effect. It plays your life in movies that are content to make a positive and negative where this is so far from the truth. It is the protection device of not hearing ones self. You either elect to realize if you need to think your way through it your not experiencing it the way that it needs to happen. You are love, you are love in motion you don’t need to think about anything that is. You are this brilliance in this moment realize you have all the magnificence to be all that is everything you are. It doesn’t need a thought process to release for the thought process has you stuck where you don’t need to be. It does this to allow time to be lost to play scenarios of protection that you do or don’t need yet you do nothing trapped in thought. All thoughts are repetitive and really have no use yet it turns out that it isn’t that we use our mind at all. Our mind uses us.. that is the error to begin with. Realize you have always had the power to stop this line of being. The really interesting part is no matter what, you will notice a shift in your being because you will read this again. I am not trying to separate you from your mind, I am just allowing you a moment of clarity to realize you aren’t your mind at all. The mind is reading this as content and not really grasping what I am saying. You however are. (yes I am pointing to the inside to your soul) Chose this as the place you go to as a form of meditation. You are not living your life situations you are living your life in this very moment. Do you see to which I point?
Thank you. I know my beliefs are just that, and not the truth. I am WIP to find the way, I have tried meditation,it worked once and it was AMAZING, but since then, I try and quiet my mind, separate it from me, and I end up thinking too much again……….
Then find my post for you it was posted today….
I always thinkmof it as I need to get the neurons firing along a different path, and then use that path until it becomes the easiest path to take – I know easier said than done.
I am going to try this, visualize , a different path literally……..or just walking in a direction will do at this moment in time…..thanks !
Right now you just need to start taking some deep breaths, get your mind quiet, get back to your centre, and be.
Then, you can try what always works for me: writing about it. I make list upon list of all the things that are in my head, and before you know it, those individual crazy thoughts have come together and a clear picture has formed before me of what’s going on and what I need to do next.
Of course, meditation, yoga, and all that jazz works wonders for quieting a restless mind, too, and I will freely admit that I partake of these practices when my schedule allows for them.
Best of luck. Hang in there. I hope you get some wonderful suggestions here that get you out of this rut. :)
I’m in a weird space too right now, but my space is about my family life, not my creative work per se. Although, all the drama does make for an incredibly limited writing schedule, and for the past while, blogging is all I’ve been able to manage. (I WON’T abandon my projects… I WON’T!!!)
Thanks. We’ll keep digging I guess, sooner or later, we’ll find water, or gold, or old bones…….or…….no, that’s it.
If I was cocky enough to give you advise, I’d have my own cable network…or at least a talk show. Sure. What I can pass on is a through-line I believe is absolute truth: in art, in life, everything is perspective.
So true Ben, so true, now sit on my shoulder for a week or two and whisper me that as I scream at the wall !
That’s okay with me. Give the wall everything you’ve got. That’s fine…just as long as the wall doesn’t scream back.